Wow, it's been 10 days since I've been online. Let's see, where to start....

Got a strange prank phone call Friday night by some freak who wanted me to "suck his cock". Then talked to the most selfish/crazy/delusional person I have ever met. Fortunately shes gone from my life now so that's good. Went driving around on my brother in laws bike for about an hour just to get out. Then Saturday... crap I can't remember what I did on Saturday... Sunday I saw a friend that I hung out with from the time I was 15 to 20 years old. I haven't seen him in 10 years. What a trip and a flashback. Weird how my past is coming back to me now that I'm back in Fort Wayne. First my friend from High school. His name is Mike. He was in my Drama class and Study Hall class. Now there is Scott who I met at my first job when I was 15 at Burger King. My god the memories I have with him and all the parties and shit we did.

Alexis was home from Sunday on to Friday. We went to Headwaters park and went swimming. Went on this nature trail type thing and fed the ducks and geese that were in a big pond they have there. Went to some appointments up in Auburn. Then spent the rest of the week inside watching movies and stuff because of the fucking humidity we have here right now. Its ungodly. The temp isn't bad but humidity is anywhere between 80-100%. Ugh... Then this past Friday my mom wanted to spend time with Alexis until Ed got her on Monday(today) but called me yesterday to pick her up because she (mom) was sick. She has an inner ear thing and sinus drainage. Both are making her nauseous so she wasn't up to taking care of Alexis. Which I don't blame her at all. So last night Alexis and I went and watched the end of the festival fireworks downtown with Scott and another friend I haven't seen in 10-11 years that Scott kept in contact with. His name is Jeff. Both Scott and Jeff are exactly the same. Looks and personality. It's weird. So anyways, us 4 and some other people went and saw the fireworks and had a good time.

Bought a couch Saturday. Thank god the futon is gone. Took it to moms for her to put on her enclosed front porch. Im glad it's getting some use. Its not in bad shape, it's just that I would rather have a real couch to sit on.

Now for some really bad news. Jerry, my hamster I saved from a horrible home 2 years ago, died last night. The vet I took him to the other day said there was nothing he could do except put him down when he got worse. He had a kidney thing that was making him sick. He couldn't tell me how much longer he would live but somewhere between now and a couple of months. What confused and upset me was that he seemed to be coming around and was having some really good days the past 4 days. But it looked like he died in his sleep. I'll miss him so fucking much..... I'm still bawling my head off and probably still will for awhile. God this sucks... Oh and that selfish/crazy/delusional person I know would probably be so excited that he died since there would be one less animal in my animal abusive home *rolls eyes*

So anyways, Ed will be picking Alexis up today after he gets back from taking his new girlfriend to the court house in the city she got arrested in. Apparently she beat up someone and there was something about insurance and now that shes on Eds insurance she can pay the womans hospital bills and so when they got pulled over speeding there was a warrant out for her arrest and Ed bailed her out. Today is her court date about it. God Ed, you are such a dumb ass....

I'm going to go cry some more for awhile... I feel like I'm handling it ok for awhile, then I break down then I handle it alright then I break down again and so on. Time for me to go break down again.

I hope you all had a good weekend.